Monday, December 17, 2012

ALONE

Being alone can be beautiful.

Having people around is great, but I think people tend to underestimate the importance of being alone. Being alone most of the time is connected with words like loneliness and sad. In society being alone has been labeled as bad, but I disagree.


With college visits I realized the importance of being alone sometimes. I went to go see Columbia College with my grandma. As we were taking a tour of the place she made statements about the school. I appreciate her feedback and it was part of the reason she was with me on the tour, but I notice that afterwards I starting to rethink my own opinion of the college that I had before and it was hard to form any new opinion with my grandma's words stuck in my head. I felt kinda frustrated and confused, trying to sort my grandma's thoughts from how I felt about the school. From then on I decided I would take college tours alone so that I could form my own opinions about the school and figure out if I really liked it. After taking the tour alone maybe I would bring someone to come with me for a second tour.

I don't really get to be alone that much. The only time I'm really alone is on the rare occasion when everyone in my house is gone and I'm left home by myself. And. I. Love. It.
I play my music without thinking about if it's too loud. I can sing loudly. I go to the bathroom without thinking to knock on the door first. When I go to make dinner I don't need to ask if something has already been pre-decided or what other people want. I could walk around without pants until the desire to put them on strikes me. If I wanted to I could have ran through the house and jumped on the couch.

Before being alone and thinking about it, you never realized how many times a day you take into consideration the other people around you with simple everyday task and how they really do change how you think and act. Being alone can be very freeing and I think it could lead to you finding out more about yourself.